6th April 2013

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kenneth-beltran asked: Miss pwede ka ba ma-miss? :)))

Lemme think. YAK INARTE. =))) Miss you!!

3rd April 2013

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Haven’t I mentioned how hopeless romantic/melodramatic I am? Yes, you read that title right! I do right love letters to my Future. I have written 24 letters so far, and this recent one was written a few minutes ago, almost after a year since the 23rd letter.

I started writing these letters when I realized that I should stop wasting my time writing for my past when a bright future out there is waiting for me! 

One day, he’ll be able to read these all. I hope he won’t get too freaked out! :))

Dear Future,

It has almost been a year since I last wrote to you. It’s not that I haven’t thought about you at all. It’s just that, for a while, I got tired of waiting for you.

For a moment, I thought I already met you. But obviously, I was wrong. I know you’re out there, wandering the streets of someone else’s heart. And here I am watching the yellow sky turn entirely black while endlessly counting each silver that pops out. And maybe, somewhere out there, you’re doing just the same thing. Who knows? But as the dark sky shy away and His blinding light envelope my world, you are still nowhere to be found.

Where are you?

I may not know who you are or where you are but what I’m pretty sure of is that I’m not gonna waste my time with somebody else. I wanna reserve all my time for you. I will always wait for you. I will still go out there and count the stars and only end my counting when I see you, my supernova. 

I will wait for you, love.

Wait for me too.

Your Future,

Joan

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27th March 2013

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I always envy those people who found that one thing they’re really passionate about and even make money out of it. I’ve always envied those who enjoy drawing and ended up being an artist or an architect or those who love to sing and became a full-time singer. I’ve always asked myself on what really am I passionate about so that I can finally redirect my life to it’s proper course. But unlike others, I find this a bit hard to answer.

I might have a heart for the arts for I appreciate much of it. I love paintings but I do not paint. I am easily amazed by great writings but, even if deep inside I wish to become a good writer, I can’t play with words like they do. I love music but I do not download every song from the billboard charts nor do I listen to my ipod every day. I can’t even tell you the latest songs without google-ing it. I love creating videos and typographies but since there are so many talented ones out there, I do not really standout therefore, I do not make an effort to learn. Boo. I can’t even be fully devoted into blogging and even keeping my journals updated even if I really wanted to. I enjoy cooking but that’s just about it. I can’t draw. I tried but it just wasn’t for me.

I love to eat, should I be a professional food taster? If they could pay me into watching movies and TV series then I might already be a millionaire. I want to travel but I don’t really have funds so I can’t really be a travel blogger if I want to…

I’ve always liked so many things but somehow along the way, I get bored and end up liking another. (NO. It’s not the same with my personal relationships, lol) And I blame this for being a Gemini!!

Ridiculous and nonsense, I know.

I’ve been asking myself what I’m passionate about but all I’m able to answer are the things I do not like or those that I’m not exceptionally good at.

Passion. Intense emotion, strong desire, boundless enthusiasm.

Hmmm… All I know is that I truly love making other people happy, inspiring people and helping others. (And singing too!)

No matter where I go and whoever I am with, I am told of not failing to crack a joke, to lift up a sad soul and to make others cry from laughing so hard. It comes out naturally. I just make others around me happy. I am generally a happy person and like a virus, it’s contagious!

I have this intense desire of inspiring others and that’s mainly the reason why I keep this blog. I’ve always wanted to contribute to other websites like Thought Catalog or Positively Positive but maybe not now, not yet? Keeping this blog and/or inspiring others is pretty hard because I don’t even know if people do read my blog but I keep it anyway thinking that one day, I’d be able to inspire a few. 

Helping others.. that’s another hit. I find it really difficult to help others especially if I do not have the enough resources. Most of the time, I want to give money to the needy but I just don’t have enough right now. Maybe soon when I finally land into a stable job. But somebody I personally know once said that not having money shouldn’t hinder you from helping. So recently, I started doing something which I won’t really tell ‘cause I intend it to stay as a secret as long as possible so what’s the point of even telling this lol… But what’s not really a secret is our little group which helps one organization every Christmas season. Please check it out and help us help others! Who knows, you might be passionate on this as well.

So which of these three I’m passionate about can I make as a living? None. But who exactly ever told that I have to search for my inner talent or a hobby and make it my life? Who said that just because one loves to bake, he/she should go out there, sell cupcakes and earn? Well I know many consider this kind of thinking… because seriously, who wouldn’t be happy doing what they love the most every single day and get paid for it, or earn from it? 

But how about those people like me?! 

Then again, there’s more to life than work. Work is not life. Life is not all about work. Sometimes I think about what my life would be if I’d be a nurse forever. I have to admit, I am NOT YET that passionate on my chosen career for this road I am taking isn’t a straight road. I’m working on it, soon I’ll get there. All those crazy night shifts and difficult people to deal with…what would my life be if I had to face those everyday?!

Again, there’s more to life than just work. I work as a nurse but my life shouldn’t revolve around it. I have so much more outside the world of nursing. With this idea on my mind, I think I’d be able to enjoy life even more. Nursing is such a tough job and thinking deeply about it sometimes scares me, sometimes it makes me sad. Realizing that work is just a fraction of life, I think I’d function better. I have to remind myself that I’ve got my family and friends that I laugh with everyday. I’ve got this blog and others that I can touch in my own ways and I’ve got Give Love on Christmas Day which basically sums up the top three things I’m passionate about…

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